I remember last Easter as though it was last week, lately. Not because anything too special happened, it was a typical holiday at blue star really. The work in the barn and caring for the horses came down to just Paul and I. Later in the morning we decided to take a team out with my nephew and my daughter Zoe and visit our friend Sandy Walsh’s Mom in Three Rivers, a nearby village. The reason I remember it so well is because Paul was beginning to really show the pain he was feeling. He didn’t have the flexibility in his hands or legs or hips to drive the team, he could barely walk.

This got worse and still somehow I didn’t understand that there was so much going on for him under the surface, until the day my life as I knew it shattered into a million pieces and fell all around me.

Today I stay close to friends and family that I trust care about me. I remember my early childhood more and more and I am allowing myself to dream in the way I did then, without limitations and fear or complicated thoughts of how “things” should be.

I have given up “hard” and have opened to being flexible and able to flow like water along from moment to moment trusting my nature is leading me perfectly everywhere I need to go. I only get stuck on the hard rocks and cold shore for shorter times and I am beginning to remember very quickly that I have a choice about what I do next. I am choosing to go within and find where and what I truly want and it is never conflict and struggle anymore.

Getting to go anywhere with Piper and her kind is a gift enough and my inner small child couldn’t be happier….

Piper and my small child within both knew all along that the world is what I make of it and my world is getting easier.